Finished reading this book too! And that means six books in about two weeks, so in 14 days I have read about 3000 pages of text. Phew, that's a lot, I feel rather dizzy after finishing this one. Tomorrow I must buy the next series, and I don't know what I will do when I reach book 10, as book 11 is not available here yet. The books has been also a blessing for the other people who read them, if they were in English I'm not sure if they would borrow. I will stop reading for a while because I have projects to accomplish, a lot of them. It is by God's given strength alone that I was able to finish typing my project for today (although that sapped a lot of my energy and I couldn't wake up in the morning to attend the 7.30 am class, but it's okay). I still have two more for Friday and Saturday, then I will be able to take a *little* breath before the next wave comes later on next week.

My relationship with God has also took a downturn. No more sitting down with Him in the morning as I must make haste to my campus, no more open talk with Him in the night (save talking in the heart with Him silently, can't speak it aloud as now I must pray in my room which I share with my brother, the upper room is no longer available for use), no more time for opening the Bible and seeking His Words (save reading Our Daily Bread, but that doesn't give much for me). And what's worse I have also fell into old sins *again*, so I must start from zero again and really try to be a soul harvester, as now I have TWO I must take care of when I have the chance.

So, I must try to keep a good schedule for study and for Him, and also try to fix my life and set my course again on the right path to be a tool, a soul harvester. It will be hard considering my currently overwhelming tasks and projects, but I will try little by little to change myself and be a better servant/children/soul harvester for Him. As a friend told me, "you can't pull someone out of the pit when you're in there too", then before I try to save others and harvest their souls, first I must make my own life just before the LORD. I must try to fight my weakness...


••• Wednesday, November 12, 2003 •••