Just went into a simple contemplation about how much I have changed in these three months. My transformation began back then on mid-August when I met Ann and Jessy, those two Psycho-Sisters, who really made an impact to me, especially Jessy. On our first chat, she already bombarded me with questions like have you been saved, how did you meet Christ, are you a new-born Christian and so on. I found that rather annoying actually, and I thought she went too far into chasing God (what I said was she needs to lower her passion a bit), and then she said it's not enough, she wanted more flames of passion [!]

That was strange at first, and I thought she was really really "into it too far" and I will never be able to be like her... but see where I am now? She no longer seems strange to me, as I'm standing in the same platform as she is. Then I met Vi for about a month or so, but the little time made such impact. Saw the Holy Spirit experience and for the first time really saw the proof of the Almighty and All-Knowing God. Still longing for a personal Holy Spirit experience in my life (now I still rely on others for that) but right now I have felt a great urge to win people's souls for Christ, that's a good sign, no? Then came Larry last month and he also made impacts in my life, with his values and teachings that changed a lot within me, especially the "think-act-feel" part which in turn reminded me about "WWJD". I admit that I haven't been able to do that... "feel-act-think" and "WWID" still rule the most part of my life, but I keep changing (unfortunately) at a slow pace. A lot of time is still needed for me.

I hope of a Holy Spirit Experience, but if not, then I will only ask to be used as a tool for His purpose, His glory, and I ask to be a soul harvester to bring others to salvation. What use is a Holy Spirit Experience if I cannot use that to bring a lot more people to Him? If without that I can still harvest souls for God, then I will move on....
(note: I found out that I'm more on the learning, teaching and witnessing role for Him, hmmm... interesting...)


••• Sunday, November 16, 2003 •••