Done reading the second Book "Tribulation Force" and now is coming into page 100 of the third Book "Nicolae". Estimated that the 500-pages "Nicolae" (fewer than the 550+ pages "Left Behind" and "Tribulation Force") will be finished tomorrow, so I must prepare myself for more by buying the fourth book "Soul Harvest", fifth book "Apollyon" and sixth book "Assassins" soon, probably tomorrow. My sister have been shouting to me alot because I have neglected my studies after I read this book. Okay I know it's not good to neglect my studies, BUT I don't know, I feel so devoted and I feel I must do something now, and that is NOT studying. What use is 4 years at the Informatics Engineering? After I passed the half-mark I felt there's nothing for me to it. After I graduated I don't know if I can use that in my life and for HIM. I really don't know. I need an answer.

I thought I would be more useful in Journalism and Graphics Design. If you have read the Left Behind series, there are two persons there that influenced me. One was Rayford Steele, I am impressed by his calling to share wherever whenever he is able about Christ his Saviour, no matter how high the risk may be. The other was Buck Cameron, hey I love to write like him, and opening an Internet site to tell the world about Christ is my dream right now (although it is far as I know only a little about HTML and the likes of it). I still have to ask Him about this. But seeing websites like Tributess and Jesus Is Lord really makes me wish that someday I will be able to do the same and share my faith about the Lord. But right now, (heh) the first priority is to graduate.... in 2 years....

"Lord, help me to see Your plans, Your paths and Your ways for me. What do You want me to be for You?"


••• Wednesday, November 05, 2003 •••