Well, people, I have to ask one thing. Have the quality of my writings been degrading lately? I got no more "divine inspirations" to write thoughtful faith-building articles such as my previous Jesus Generation and Why It's So Hard To Find The King, which have been greatly blessed. Now all I can do is to open up this w.Bloggar program, gazing at it and wondering, what should I write? As right now I don't have any inspirations, I'll write the feelings of my heart now. Now I am trying to reach back again to the level of relationship that I once had with Him. It's a very long way to go.

First and foremost, the lack of people who seem to be here have given me a feeling that "nobody reads all this stuff". This feeling in the end pushed me to put up a counter which you can see on the right side, just to satisfy my curiousity about how much people are actually visiting this place. I start to feel that all I write here is useless, the teachings, the articles, all of it. I wanted a ministry, and I have given this blog as a place of ministry, where I ask Him to use it as means of teaching others, strengthening others, building the faith of others. But? Lately I've been just throwing in everything that I can post... just to make it seem "updated". Which I know, is of no use at all.

The number of people who have been asking me to use Indonesian language in my writings have been very astonishing. Which made me wonder, if I have to write in Indonesian JUST to make my blog being read and commented, and in the end defying my own vision and mission to use this blog as a ministry. This blog have been much a blessing in the earlier days to many people from abroad, let's say Marisa, Aibou, and David. Even since the days of the past blog in UJournal, in English, it have been a blessing, and what made me wonder, those days at UJournal, many people have sent their comments in and no one complained about my blog being written in English. The likes of Vi and TG have paid a lot of visits there. But WHY as I now move to Blogspot, then people start to ask me to change the language? Is it only because most of the 2kG Bloggers write in Indonesian? Tell me.

But I have decided to continue writing in English. It is an international language, and it fits my mission of worldwide soul harvesting and teaching. Maybe you will tell me that it's too much for one man to do. But if God will let me do so, He will help me do so throught this blog. LEARN ENGLISH, my friends. You can't tell the world about Christ without it, as the time is still far away when the ministers of Christ will speak in their native language, and those who listen will receive it in their own native languages like in Acts 2. Yes, my friends, the time will come, but not presently. Do you want to waste your time waiting it?


••• Thursday, December 11, 2003 •••