Well, alright, since my last post about those "tents" thing, a lot of things happened. I have fallen into the depths of that sin, and even after I realized my wrongs, the despair just led me to deeper self pity and in the end, more sin. I struggled to get out from there, and started my walk again to find the King, this time the path being more heavier than ever. But yet, coming back to Him brought me to restoration and revival.

I am reminded yet again of my promises. I asked Him before to be a soul winner (more exactly I said pneuma theristes = soul harvester). He gave me one soul to save, and one other to teach. Where are those two now? I haven't approached the lost one even until today, and I need to do that quickly as she's in illness and I don't want her to leave without knowing about her final destination. The other one, I have neglected her. She was hungry and craving to seek more from God and find Him, yet with the current church we're now she can't gain much, so she asked me for help, knowing that I have got more from this online community. I wonder how she's doing now..

Other than a restoration in terms of faith and mission/vision, the relationship with God is restored when I returned to Him. The walk with Him (Emmanuel) is once again felt, and His providence for me has been restored too, like what it used to be before, when during the mid-term exams He provided intelligence and wisdom for me to get good marks for those. Today, the same providence has been given. I got a perfect mark (100%) for my Computer Networking Practice Test and about 80% for my Discrete Mathematics Test (very confusing course). On my own strength, those results would have been impossible. Thanks, Jesus =)

So today I've found once again His amazing grace that will forgive all your trespassings and failings. Marisa has said that repentance brings revival (read here) and this is what I can say about its truth. For the next part that repentance will begin Soul Winning, I still have to fix myself and end my transgressions before I can do that.

For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear Him;
As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
As a father pities his children, so the LORD pities those who fear Him.
For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.

••• Wednesday, December 03, 2003 •••