It has been a few weeks I think since I came back to Father. Many things had happened. The first thing was the rededication of this blog to His cause. The second thing were improvements in my ministries for the church...

Tomorrow will become a big day. I will play as Judas Iscariot on the Easter Cantata* "The Power and The Glory". Although I will only play in 3 out of the 14 chapters included (respectively Hosanna, Remember Me, and The Crucifixion) which will only net me less than 15 minutes face-time (although I will play a major role in The Crucifixion, but even in that part I will only get about 2 minutes face-time, the face-time of the play team is short compared to the choirs), I still feel somewhat tense and unable to relax. This is my first ever part in a big ministry, in the past I only ministered in the "behind-the-screen" ministries. I can't get myself to calm down... *wipes sweat* I really hope that today I, and all of the people in this team, can give our best to fulfill God's glory and to show the love and sacrifices of Jesus to the congregation of my church, and also for the people watching the VCD.

"What VCD?", you may ask. The cantata will be recorded on VCD, and I'm planning to copy and send it to some of my friends. Actually I really hope that everyone here can watch it, but I can't upload it over the net (the overall cantata is about one hour, which will be hard to upload). So the best way I can do is to send them to a few friends who are within reach, notably Ann/Jessy, Pau, Juli, Chees, Angie and Eve. I will also copy one VCD for myself and I will bring it when I go to my friends' places in Jakarta this July/August so that they can also behold The Power and The Glory of The LORD (and more importantly also the love and sacrifices that He has given us).

If I can, I would ask for all your prayers and support for the whole team. The cantata will start around 5.30 pm tomorrow (which is 10.30 am GMT). We have done all we can, we have practiced all the time, and tomorrow we will give it all to God so that His magnificent glory will be shown through us. I am sorry if not all of you will have the chance to watch it, I sincerely hope that one day I may have the chance to send you the VCD. Oh, and by the way, the cantata is in Indonesian, so it's unlikely David, Marisa and Chette can understand even if I can send it >_<

Sigh... I deeply want you guys to see this... even as I am writing this, some of the songs are resonating inside my head... Father, forgive them, so the Saviour prayed... Father, forgive them, for they are not guilty... Father, forgice them, I have cleansed all of their sins... I think I will ask some of my friends to call me so that I will sing for them. Although I am not in the choirs, I do remember some of the songs, because some of them left a deep inspiration inside my soul and I long to sing them again and again. I just can't stop singing.... I just CAN'T stop singing....

* Cantata, according to the English dictionary:
\Can*ta"ta\, n. [It., fr. cantare to sing, fr. L. cantare intens of canere to sing.] (Mus.) A poem set to music; a musical composition comprising choruses, solos, interludes, etc., arranged in a somewhat dramatic manner; originally, a composition for a single noise, consisting of both recitative and melody.


••• Friday, April 09, 2004 •••