Remember about the last post when I talked a lot about a star shining in the sky? Well I found this nice wallpaper which I'm using now to remind me of it. You can download it here. Hmm.... is this another gift for me? Thanks! ;)

Oh and yeah, almost forgot. I also have the MP3 of Christmas Isn't Christmas! You can also download it here (right click - save target as). I just found it today while surfing through KL++. Aaah, to listen to these kids singing Christmas Isn't Christmas so nicely and so... so... Okay, must hold myself, do not cry, do not cry... heh -_-




••• Saturday, December 20, 2003 •••
Chorus:
Christmas isn't Christmas
'Til it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.

So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas,
Really Christmas for you.

Verse:
Jesus brings you warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow.
He's waiting now to come inside
As he did so long ago.

Jesus brings gifts of truth and light
And makes them bloom and grow.
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes, you'll know...

Chorus:
That Christmas isn't Christmas
'Til it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.

So give your heart to Jesus.
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas
Christmas, really Christmas
Christmas, really Christmas for you.

- click here to download the MIDI -

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As I'm writing this, I'm practically in tears. This song is really touching (>_<) and although this one is just a MIDI version of the song, it's a real good one. I feel as if I can hear an angelic choir in a far away place singing this place. I feel like I can see kind of a movie flick playing right in front of my eyes thru my mind.... this is what I see....

"It is Christmas night, December 24th. A snowy night. People walking and singing in the streets. Christmas trees, lights and songs everywhere. People holding hands together, couples eating in a restaurant, a family in front of a fireplace, a grandmother telling the Christmas story to her grandchildren. A really peaceful night with a sky full of stars shining. But there's that one big star up in the sky, its beautiful light can be seen shining brightly that night.

The same star. The same sky. The same snowy night. A lonely city at night. All its residents have fallen asleep in the cold night. From far away can be seen two persons walking, a man with his pregnant wife. They went to each house, each inn, knocking each door to find a resting place for the night. But there was no place for them, all of the inns was full. Until they came to an inn, and the owner let them stay in the sheepfold. Not long afterwards, the mother gave birth to a child. This was the birth of Jesus, Son of Man, the Savior of the world.

That was the first Christmas night. 2003 years have passed. In the Christmas Night of December 24th, 2003, how many will remember about the first Christmas? About the baby that was born in a manger in Bethlehem? Will they just forgive Him and go on with they celebrations, celebrating nothing more than the celebration itself. Will the meaning of the birth of Jesus be lost be the passing of years? Blessed be you that still remember about that child, for you did not see His birth but you believed and you are saved in Him. The real meaning of Christmas will never be lost... as long as there is people like you who remember. Merry Christmas. The Christmas is in your hearts."

I had to go through my tears and trembling hands to type what I saw above. I was really crying, because of this song, that sight, everything. It's like I want to shout to those people I saw in the streets, "Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your hearts! Do you remember about the baby that was born in a manger? Remember Him!". To see those people walking in the Christmas night and knowing that Jesus is not in their hearts that night! (-_-) How I wished I could scream and they would listen! I feel like I could picture myself in that flick, walking alone, wrapped in a brown thin coat, with sadness, and looking to the star in the sky above, and said to Him, "LORD, can't they see this star? Can't they see this star, that two thousand years ago has led the shepherds and the wise men to You? How many would see this star and remember you, LORD?". And just now, I saw a vision continuation....

"Suddenly there was a blackout in the city. The Christmas trees and lights faded. People went up from their homes and stand in the streets. Suddenly the star shone more brightly and people looked up at the star and said "Look!". The star shone so brightly that even the dark night became so bright, and then they remembered about Jesus, about the child that was born that day. Is this not what happened in the first Christmas? The world was dark. And Jesus came to the world, and shone through it, and brought it to the light. And then, those people who saw it kneeled and prayed... just like the shepherds and the wise men when they saw Him 2003 years ago..."


Prayer:
"I thank You, LORD, for all this. Suddenly You urged me to look for this song, and You helped me find it, such a beautiful song. And for the vision, I do not know if it is from my own mind playing it, but I want to believe and I do believe that it is You who granted me this. And it was so great and beautiful that the vision came and came streaming to me as I typed it here, paragraph by paragraph. Especially the last paragraph that just went through me, as I wrote the shouting of my heart unto You. It was so beautiful, LORD. Thank You. I long to see You and to know You more this Christmas, and I want it to happen in my heart. Thank You, LORD. Thank You for all this..."




••• Wednesday, December 17, 2003 •••
FREEDO~~~ er... not yet. There are two more to go before I'm finished, one tomorrow and one on Friday, and no, I won't have my freedom after that. There are still two remaining projects that I have to finish and presentate at January 7th, and so I won't be able to go anywhere before that. And after that it'll be likely too late to go anywhere, so I guess I'll just stay home and play my Star Wars: KotOR. I'm so tired and very tired with these exams, and I don't think I'll get enough time to recover tonight. Because I must study... =|

Discrete Mathematics tomorrow at 7.30 am, and now it's 8.50 pm, have just got home 7.30 pm today, in a very tired physical and mental state. Ooh... I need some sleep. And know what? I failed most of the exams. My prediction is that I'll get only 50% to 60% for those exams. Well fortunately at that level I'll still pass, but not with good grades... *sigh* I'm so sure that my grades will go down this semester =( I'll just hope that it won't go down too much or else I'll have my parents shouting again... Hmm, I'm getting so lazy these days, procrastinating... ~_~

"Masa Masa Paling Indah Susah... Masa Masa Di Sekolah Kuliah..." -- Chrisye Blue

••• Tuesday, December 16, 2003 •••
YAAAARGH! Whoops... sorry about that ^^* Well, sorry for not visiting your blogs and not replying to your comments and shouts until today. I upgraded my Graphics Adapter from GeForce2 MX 400 32 MB to GeForce4 MX 440 64 MB AGP 8x, in order to play Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic (KotOR). But in the end it broke down my PC, and as it was Saturday night, I couldn't do anything but to wait for Monday as my PC shop is closed on Sundays. It's fixed now. I'll post another entry later tonight, and I'll go visit your blogs now :)


••• Monday, December 15, 2003 •••